I'M SORRY FRIENDS. I'M MESSED UP.

I'm sorry..if i could turn back time, all these things aren't going to happen. n how i am so regret of what i have done. im so sorry. i feel bad. i feel stupid all the time. i hate for who i have becme. im sory..!!!

lelaki yg sy mahu!

its 2011 and im close to 23. i think im older enough to decide what type of man i would want to spend with for the rest of my life. i would be honest, the hardest part is to satisfy my mum. 'something' had happened to my family a few years ago. and it brakes her hearts, my dad's heart.well i guess all of us felt the same too. and for my sister, it is undescribe-able. ofcourse, after that, my mum always remind us, remind me, my sister, n my brothers, to make a very good choice. to think very deep before take another step which is getting married.  to get know our man first. my mum always told me, don't marry a guy who always ask for money. because after married,he will ask for it over and over again. my mum also said..don't marry a lazy guy. because he will skip work, he will sleep meanwhile everyone busy time kenduri. my mum told me, find a guy who can feed you!bcause it is his responsibility. so that her grandchild won't starve. ..
i agree with my mum. and all of us knw what is the reasons for each of it. for me myself, i also want my man to be someone who can bring me to the right path. to remind me what i forgot. someone who can perform puasa, can perform solat..even now he can't mengaji or what, but i would love if he wants to learn on it. because, honestly, i always wanted to leave my life yg telah lupa smuanya. i hate the way i became right now. i want someone who can pull me put from this. i always wanted to leave!
i always pray, may God show me a good man that i can spend the rest of my life with..amin.